Spontaneity in the Holocaust?

To be spontaneous and impulsive during the Holocaust sometimes meant to go with natural instincts rather than following the orders of inhumane leaders.  People possibly escaped their fatal fates by merely being spontaneous and hopeful, and of course obeying demands when deemed fit to do so.  Talking to some Holocaust survivors, many believe part of their fate to live was luck.  No matter what, making an impulsive move could be the difference between life or death.

An example of spontaneity is when a Holocaust survivor I met named Trudy spoke about her impulsive decision to stay back in her barrack when many teens got excited when they heard people say in what seemed like a "promising" manner that they were the Red Cross and would save them if the victims ran to the trucks.  Once the teens ran to what they thought was their rescue, they were shot and killed instantly by Nazis.  Remember, Trudy stayed back.  She does not recall what her thought process was during this time, but it was her instinct to not move and stay dormant in her room.  Her individualistic actions and choices saved her; she did not give in to societal influence. It may have been her compassionate self to let others go before her to what they thought was to be saved, or maybe she did not feel well enough at the time to go out.  It does not matter in the end what went through her youthful teenage head at the time because she is here today telling her story and it is quite a meaningful one.  I find it so fascinating how vivid these stories still are in the minds of the elders who were once young survivors.  It just shows how much disturbing recollection and scarring the Holocaust gave way to.